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Be You in me.
Thank You for not giving up on us!
A Serious Business
Today I cringed when I got a good look at the person I have become. And my heart got sad. Who is this person. I don’t want to be her. Is this all that I’ve become? A bitter judgmental lonely woman? Ashamed at what comes out of my mouth and heart. Has God seen this all along? Or does He see more? Do I have hope? Can this wretched being be changed?
I spout the life of a Christian when all the while the only thing that seeps out of me is dirty vile. I reek of unkind and unloving reactions. I stink of selfishness and vanity. How did this come to be? When did I become this? I thought that I was doing so good! What good? No, there is no good in me.
I know that for me it is impossible to change me, but dear Lord, will You? Will You change me please? I can’t stand the sight of me. The way I don’t seek you the way I should. The way I don’t give back to humanity as I should. The way I ignore the lonely and the weary. Not even my father who is all alone do I go to visit. I have become stuck in this world that I have created, all alone am I.
Please my Savior pull me out of this ditch that I have dug and jumped into. Pull me out dear Lord. Please. Pull me out. Restore in me the light that once was there. The beauty of Your Spirit within my soul. Please live in me. Please fill me with Your Holy Spirit like never before. If once You loved me and once You
smiled at me. Once You had plans for me, please continue with Your plans for me. Please don’t wipe me from Your thoughts. Please don’t lose interest in me. Please don’t hide Your face from me. I have seen me and I am disgusted. Please cleanse me dear Jesus from my sins, the ones that get dirtier and dirtier and worsen by the hour. Please free me dear Lord! How do my sins take over so quickly?
It is not enough to come to you once in a while. Sin is so vile, it can trap up when we are not expecting it. So, expect it. Don’t let sin in. How can I do that? By staying close to You at all times. That is the only way that sin will not invade, it cannot and will not hurt me when You are around. So please dear Jesus please stay here with me. Don’t let me out of Your sight. Please please please forgive my failures and constant sins.
A Serious Business
Thank You for not giving up on us!
A Serious Business
Dear Jesus,
This is a serious business here serving You. You are pure and holy and You ask that we as your children be holy. Please help us to be like you my Lord. You are not only holy but You are a merciful God. Your upright character is excellent. You do not sin nor do you make mistakes. All the while you maintain patience and temperance toward us. You forgive us over and over again. You listen to us. You lead and guide us. You watch over us even when we are in sin.
Dare I talk about my downright character flaws? I have many. To name a few, well let’s say I am not so patient. My temperance needs improvement. I forgive because I have to sometimes and not because I feel it in my heart. If I were God I might have destroyed the planet and myself. No No No. When things go wrong I whine like a little helpless baby. Most times, I don’t wait on God to bring His light and His healing to me.
God has a way of supernaturally making everything turn out so right. He has a way that’s so special, how He loves us unconditionally. There are consequences for sin yet even in the consequences that we have to endure, He is still there with us helping us grow.
Lord Jesus, please help us to see You. What you are about and why we should be like You. If we understand You more, then maybe we can strive to be more like you.
I choose Jesus. I choose you dear Lord. Forever I want to praise You and honor You. Forever I want to be by Your side. Whatever plans You have for me Lord, I want those plans. I choose those. Please lead and guide us to choose Your plans and not ours. Amen.
Thank You for not giving up on us!
Thank You for not giving up on us!
Thank You for not giving up on us!
Dear Jesus,
Today I realized that if you were to decide that you just didn’t want to bother with us here on earth anymore we would melt away. We would become dust again. There would be no life. That is why I know that your goodness is spread out onto the earth to the just and the unjust. But it is not our place to judge. I don’t know why those who don’t believe in you remain blessed and in powerful places. I don’t know why the just suffer and are without.
What I do know is that You are with us. You watch our steps and you reign over us and will forevermore for as long as it pleases you. What I also know is that sometimes in our path we must fall hard, sometimes even twice or three times. I believe that by falling we can grow, we can see and we can become humble. Just don’t give up. Don’t stop trying.
Only God knows why your neighbor has a large home and large savings in his bank account, good friends and family. We don’t know what goes on behind closed doors. No-one hangs their laundry out to dry in the front yard for others to see, it is done in the backyard, in a hidden location.
Carry on with your head up high, not the raising head up because of pride, the raise your head up to God. Look to Him. Keep your eyes on Him. He will not steer you wrong. Go to Him. Let Him heal you. Let Him comfort you. Let him lead and guide your path.
God isn’t finished with you yet. We don’t know the future nor is it intended for us to know it. Which to me means that we must live each moment in the present. Not thinking about what could be nor what could have been. That is not for us to have. We only have today. I think that sometimes we delay the next phase of our life because we are stuck in the present phase that is trying to teach us something and is trying to help us grow.
Live each day, each hour as if it were your last and your judgment day was going to be about the day that you lived today. How would you live it? What would you do? I know a day, a simple day is only that, a common day. But there’s more to a day than that. The things that we cannot see are ever-present. “Let wisdom be your sister and common sense your closest friend” Prov. 7:4 You see they are there for us if we allow them to be. There are the fruits of the spirit (Gal 5:22) if we allow them to flourish. There is the armor of God (Eph. 6:10) if we take the time to wear it.
God has fully armed us to be prepared and to live a holy life for Him. It is up to us to take up our cross and to live for Him. Wherever He wants to lead me, I will go. Trusting fully in Him that He will lead me in the right path. Ultimately to the wedding day when He comes for us.
Lord Jesus Help Us To Trust In You More
Lord Jesus,
I really want to trust You. From the deepness of the bottom of my heart. From the root of it to the very end of it please strengthen my heart and help me to trust in You. Lord I have walked by myself for so long. I am so used to doing things by myself for so long. Please let me trust You to help me. Maybe I don’t know how to do that, maybe I’m hard headed. I feel like I have tried and that I wanna try harder. But my humanness ruins it for me. Please I beg of You, fill me with Super Natural Powers so that I can let go of my fears and just fully trust in You. I thank You in advance.